Vacations are hard. A lot of work to make happen, filled with joy and stress throughout, and the ending which hangs heavy. Another one has come to an end in our family and I'm left with a familiar poignant ache, mourning the loss for my children as well as for myself.
It's hard to handle how sharp endings are, the finality of it all. I've spent 5 months looking forward to this trip, planning for it with my wife, talking it up with my kids, and now in the blink of an eye it's all over? As soon as it started it's done? It feels unfair. It goes no faster than life at home, and yet I don't spend months anticipating doing the exact same stuff i've been doing the rest of the time.
I hope they look back on these trips with as much fondness as I did as a kid. Spending time with cousins who live far away, going to the beach, eating treats night and day, falling asleep in my arms at a restaurant because they played too hard...
Continue reading →cohost made it very easy to post. bluesky makes it easy to post but posting there sucks. even tho cohost was public, it gave a wonderful illusion of being out of sight (if not actually private) which enabled more freeing posting. the nicer post editor helped too. it's hard to imagine posting shorter things here but where else should i post them?
blogs feel so weighty compared to microblogging.
spoiler warning for the ending of jedi survivor.
i finished the game and thought the ending sucked ass. i wrote a bunch to some friends and have adapted it to a longer rant here.
Continue reading →I began to update the Now page and realized that because it's ephemeral, I should put all of my transient thoughts in a post first.
Continue reading →I have some plans for the new year that I'd like to put to paper as a small measure of accountability and internal pressure to follow through. I don't expect to do all of these, all goals are transitory and cannot account for future changes, but I do plan to hold these in mind as I move through the year.
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Every so often I decide to get a latte from a coffee shop instead of black coffee (pour over preferably). It is nearly always a mistake. I like the taste of black coffee, especially if it's a good bean like a single origin Ethiopian or Guatemalan. Lattes have a nice flavor on first sip, but they tend to sit heavier and don't go cold as gracefully.
The other issue is that lattes want to be cortados, but it's harder to justify paying $3-$5 for 3 oz of drink compared to $4-$6 for 12 oz of coffee. A bit of milk to lighten espresso is great; a bit of espresso to go with my heated milk sucks actually.
I just gotta stop buying lattes, it's almost always a mistake.
I'm trying out Working Copy on ios to post from mobile. It's more cumbersome than Cohost's excellent editor, but I'm hopeful that in the long run this will suit me. Because the number one change I felt over the last two years was a freedom to post when I had the urge, which is traditionally hard with static sites.
Previews??? who needs em, i know what i'm doing 🥲
Conspiracy theory: Parks and Rec was a psyop to make people hate Hillary Clinton-era liberals.
Yes, my wife is rewatching Parks and Rec, why do you ask?
my wife is preggers again and we're back on that grindset, trying to find a "boy" name(i know, don't at me lol).
if you had to name a kid born with a penis, what would you choose?
My current blog system uses Cryogen and compiled all markdown into html when I ran it locally. This sucked, so I've switched to relying on Github Actions to deploy the generated content to the pages site. Thankfully, it's much better now.
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I wrote this hours before the website https://cohost.org closed.
i have never blogged so much, made so many dumb jokes, or engaged so fervently and honestly. i've made some friends, learned some things, and found that it feels good to share without having to self select or edit my thoughts (compared to facebook, the previous site of my mostly honest thoughts).
i've enjoyed no numbers, the css crimes, and eggbug.
Continue reading →i'm still playing blasphemous, trying to finish it, and it's a grind in part because there's no quest markers or log or anything. i don't remember characters, i don't know what i'm supposed to be doing, i'm just going around trying to unlock new portions of the map, and exploring old stuff.
it's frustrating to climb to the highest point in the map, see that i'm supposed to going further up but that it's blocked off, and see no way to progress.
i looked up a guide, and i'm in the second or third to last area, but all of the exploration stuff has been done, and none of the characters in supposed to talk to are where they said to be, so what now? lol
Continue reading →but it feels incredible to play. movement is precise, dodging and blocking feel good, the art is some of the best, the music is haunting. i remember enjoying it but i don't remember enjoying it this much. I did play it immediately after playing Ori and the Blind Forest so many maybe that was my problem. i almost want to restart just so i can remember what the hell is going on in the story.
i'm up to 19 hours in a week and I won't stop until i've liberated the whole galaxy. i am bursting with enthusiasm about it but idk how to write about it without falling into cliche. the available tools allow for unparalleled artistry when executing a plan or recovering from an alarm.
idk it's great. it was opaque and dense and hard as hell at first but now i'm pulling off tricks, clearing a room in a second without second thought.
4 year old, interrupting my bed time song: cows are made of meat. are humans made of meat?
me: yes, we are made of meat.
her: do we eat human meat?
me: no.
her: why not?
me: well, it's complicated, but there are 3 primary reasons...
i ended on telling her about prions and how scary they are and she was like "i'm not gonna eat human meat" and i was like "that's smart, please don't"
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I've written a converter to translate a selected number of my posts from the now-defunct blogging platform and social media website https://cohost.org. They're poorly converted to markdown and I don't plan on doing much with them except host them for personal posterity. A few will appear in my main feed, most will not. They can be viewed here.
I have decided to remove this and purely rely on moving specific posts over. I don't need to carry the baggage of all that forward. I have it for my personal usage and that's good enough. Let eggbug sleep, she deserves it.
